The first time in my life when I felt ‘different’ was when I moved to California when I was 12. It was a large adjustment. I didn’t feel like I fit in for the first time in my life. I didn’t feel like I had friends outside of my family. I didn’t feel like I was home.

Funnily enough that’s what started me making videos and doing what I do because it made me happy - and since I didn’t have a lot to make me happy, it’s what I kept going back to.

And again funnily enough, I was scared to tell my friends. I was terrified that they would find out until they kind of found out on their own. And now that I’m older I look back and I hate that I felt like that. I hate that I was groomed to be so fearful of what I was doing. I think you should embrace your individuality, what makes you different. I wish it wouldn’t have taken me so long to figure that out, but I guess that’s growing up.”

Dylan O’Brien at Giffoni Film Festival (via dylanshands)